social life

I spend most of my time since a few weeks to look at others lifestyle
It's an immoral act
voyeurism, seeing other people living
dansing
eating
drinking
enjoying their lives
I m not a bad person
I thought that I can live like them
I was happy to love someone who had that lifestyle
but I pull it down in my lonlyness
now she's happy to be far from me
I don't feel good
I m really sick now
like one year ago
I m crying the choices I've made
really?
no
born again
just stay and see


LIFE is...

to be continued...